I feel empty. I don’t know what’s missing. If I move away will the emptiness still remain? What do I need to do to fill the void? Why is it whenever I meet someone great I back off as soon as things get a little serious? What am I looking for? Will moving change anything? After all change is always a good thing right? It’s how we learn, grow, develop new ideas or expand our minds to break out of the bubble most of us so comfortably live in. I don’t want to get comfortable I want to explore.
What is making me feel the way I do. I don’t like not knowing what this emotion is called. It’s like being kicked in the stomach along with a lot of anxiety. I’m not running away. I’m finding out where I want to be. How is moving ever a bad thing. I’m pretty sick of hearing other people’s opinions on the matter. After all it’s my story not theirs.
I love the idea of my open mind. I like how versatile my ideas can be. I’m happy with the person I am not to be completely fucking boring sticking to one boring job or studying a subject that may get me no where in the future. I’m still so unsure about a lot of things in my life but that’s okay were not suppose to have the answers, life isn’t suppose to be planned. I will take chances, I will get hurt, I will have the time of my life, I will find out what I want from my life, I will fall in love but all in my own time. I don’t like being rushed or being told what’s right or wrong. No one should be the voice of my life but me .
For now I am free.
